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03:15 pm: What's happening to me?
Yeah, I know I haven't updated in awhile... but all this serious random shit has happened to me over the past few weeks. I love my parents, I usually see them laughing and discussing and contemplating and stuff. It seems like after our summer trip to Cape Cod, they haven't. Then, all of a sudden, out of the blue, I find out they're separating?!!!?? What the Fuck!? I felt like standing up and telling them they're going to hell and leaving the room but I decided against it. Now I have to help my mom find a house and/or apartment???!! What the fuck? Everything's happening too fast, to intense....
And I smoked my first cigarette today. I know, I know, but people have said it relieves stress, and it did, to an extent. Well, actually, not really. Jessica said I have to get used to it because I coughed and hacked my way through the whole thing.... It was a very friendly (albeit sketchy) thing to do, having Jessica teach me how to flick it and everything.... I know I belong to all these groups online that promote being straight-edge but I really can't take much of it anymore, in other words, life pretty much sucks right now...
~prettypinkposer

12:27 am: Marijuna Dilemma yet again....
I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while.  I've been busy finishing up my summer assignments for school, and not too much has been happening.  I've been spending a lot of time with Josh.  Sometimes I pick him up in my Beetle and we just drive around, not really going anywhere in particular.  I tried to ask Jessica if she smokes pot, and she said some things that really made me think.  For one thing, it can be used medicinally, and if it has medical benefits, then it can't be as harmful as other drugs out there.  Also, she said that if the government legalized it, then people wouldn't have to worry about drug dealers putting other drugs in it.  I didn't get an answer from her if she smokes pot or not, but I think that she might.  I don't know, I don't think I would ever try it.  I hope I don't.  Teachers in school say a lot of bad things about it, but Jessica did bring up some interesting points.  Who should I believe, my teachers or my best friend?
~Prettypinkposer

12:36 pm: How I love my boyfriend....
I realize that I've been talking about my friend Jessica so much that I've never touched the slightest base about my boyfriend, Josh. Wow, what can I say about Josh? Bright, radiating blue eyes, golden yellow hair, such a strong physique. I've never thought about it much, but I love him. I want to marry him. I can definitely see myself grow old with him. He's perfect in every way, plus his sense of humor can't possibly be beaten. Sigh, I'd write more, but I have the strong urge to call him now.
~prettypinkposer

06:34 pm: Fight with my parents today :-(
Hey again, today I was eating lunch with my parents and coincidentally the topic of our conversation was alcohol and drugs. So they were discussing how teens today have no moral values and turn to drugs and alcohol for support. So I had a lot going on in my head then and I stupidly blurt out, "Jessica smokes, you know". I really don't know why I did it but all I know is that my parents were horrifically shocked. They've known Jessica since I was in Kindergarten and think of her as a second daughter. They were seriously considering calling Jessica's parents but I somehow convinced them not to. I was arguing that Jessica is capable of making her own decisions and I'm sure she'll make the right choice while my parents were arguing that she's a teenager, she can't make choices. I didn't want to talk to them much after that so I just marched up to my room. I cried a little, wondering who to pledge allegiance to, my parents, my friend, or neither... Now my parents are still downstairs and I think they're not going to let me see Jessica anymore. I'm pretty worried and peeved.
~prettypinkposer

01:34 am: Wow, it's late-Update on things with Jessica
Well, while I was out shopping a little this afternoon and Jessica called and asked me what was up and asked me if I wanted to see a movie that night. I didn't want to make some kind of ruckus over the phone in the middle of the store so I agreed. Well, my original plan was to talk to her about her smoking problem during the movie previews but that plan quickly failed. The theater was packed with all sorts of strange people and the previews were quite loud. So, that plan failed.
And then the movie started... When Jessica told me what movie we were going to see about an hour back, I thought It'd be an interesting tale of how two men go on a journey to White Castle or something. Only after a little while I realized what kind of movie this was... the typical stoner flick, cleverly cast with two Asians.
Now I was getting higly highly suspicious of Jessica. She smokes cigarettes, and maybe she smokes pot too? That last thought kind of frightened me... I'll have to admit though, the movie was a near non-stop laughfest. I'd never thought I'd laugh so hard at such vulgar comedy, but for some reason It kind of hit a nerve...
Cigarettes kill, I knew that... But pot, maybe, just maybe, isn't as bad as I thought it was. I remember teachers always advocating "Just say no" and other programs like that. For some reason, it never caught on and now my school has a serious drug problem. Still, you'd never catch me smoking pot ever.
Jessica and I had a good time eating ice cream afterwards and I dropped her off at home and I think she caught on to me being mad about her smoking because she didn't light up in the car.
Wow, tonight has been a serious mindjob for me... I really need someone's guidance to tell me if it's okay to think pot is okay....
~prettypinkposer

01:00 pm: Hi again!!! Problem today.... :(
Hey everyone, I hope more people are going to find this journal within a short period of time. I've created my LJ group, thoughtsonboys, and I hope it does well. So far, no one's joined, but I have faith that that will change.
Well anyway, today I'm in a not-so-cheery mood. I was driving with my really really good friend Jessica in my Beetle, just cruising and listening to the radio, when she asks me if my car retains smells.
"Ummm... I'm not sure, I don't think so... it's a convertible, why?"
And then, without answering back, she pulls out a cigarette and lights it, right there in my car. I asked her what the hell she thinks she's doing to which she calmly replied, "smoking". I was so mad I decided to skip cruising all around town and just drop her off at her house. When we got there I opened the door for her and she said "Hey, what gives?" and I just said "Bye, I'll talk to you later". When I came home I Febreezed the car because it stunk pretty badly. I didn't want my parents to think I was doing anything sketchy.
Now, my dilemma is, should I confront her about this the next time I see her or should I just let it slide an hope it never happens again? I mean, I really hate the idea of people who smoke but I know I can't change people. Plus, I'm not sure what I'm mad about more... Her smoking in my car without telling me or her ruining her lungs, slowly killing herself.... God, I'm really peeved. I think I'm gonna visit some communites and ask for their opinion.
~prettypinkposer

11:21 pm: Hi everyone!!!
Hi everyone, my name is Louise Friend (yeah, I know it sounds like a similar anagram from Silence of the Lambs. Countless people have told me that, I myself have never seen it). I'm 17 (lol, the day i started this journal). I live in Cleveland, Ohio with my parents, both happily married (I might add). Life in Cleveland is quite eventful, what with my brand new Beetle Convertible. And, like the song states, "Cleveland Rocks". But my life isn't all fun and games. I go to church every Sunday (hardcore Roman Catholic, lol). In fact, my parents really wanted me to be a nun a few years back. I thought about it for awhile, but then thought against it. They totally agreed with my decision to get married, raise a perfect family, and die old and pious. And right now, anyways, I'm working on applying for colleges (where I hope to major in education and possibly medical science, I'm still debating on the two). I'm also focused on being the best friend and girlfriend I can be to my friends and boyfriend. My boyfriend, like any good boyfriend, gets along quite well with my parents. Dare I say it, I often lust for him (lol, don't worry, I'm still a virgin, God). Well, anyways, life is pretty good for me in Cleveland and I hope to make lots of LiveJournal friends while I'm here...
~Louise